Nature of modern evil

I see it in the clubs, I see it in the streets, I see it in the university, I see it in other people, I see it in myself. Its a deadly infection unseen by many, spread by most. For the infected the prognosis is not good: empty life, lack of happiness and slow death of the soul.
I was once infected by it and it almost buried me before my time. What are the symptoms of the infection? In my observation the symptoms are passivity, low self-esteem, lack of passion and expression, anger, fustration, cowardice and depression. The infection is also known as niceness. Yes you heard me niceness, and when I say niceness I don't mix it with kindness or with goodness. For example Merriam Webster defines the word nice in following way:
5 : PLEASING, AGREEABLE: a nice time, a nice person.
6: socially acceptable:WELL-BRED: from a nice family.
So what's wrong with a nice person? Niceness is almost always fear and passivity in disguise. Nice person is afraid to voice his/hers opinnion even when right or to be himself or herself because of what others might think. Nice person is nice instead of good and even if not directly making evil actions he/she is a collaborate in evil by not taking a stand againts injustice.
Nice person will smile at you pleasantly with empty look in her/his eyes and does nothing even if you are walking to your doom. So I choose not to be nice and pleasant but kind and good with best of my ability and with all of my strength.

Farewell I will miss you

My friend just passed away today I will miss her happy energy that she had until the very end, I will miss the warmth she always had for me.
Yesterday I could hear her paws scratching against the wooden floor today those sounds are only a memory. May the place you went to have lots of juicy bones just for you.

Embrace of the dark side, lust for power

Who is the most alpha? Whose value I need to dimish to raise mine? Do I finally have everything down to the finest detail? Where is the love I used to feel? Who is in control? I am I powerful enough? Who is going to win? Have I lost myself?

Those were the questions I kept asking myself when I took a dangerous visit to the dark side of personal development and personal power.
What is the dark side you might ask? Dark side for me was made of pride, lust for power, power games, resentment, anger, jealousness, fear and feelings of unworthiness. It started as a innocent hobby but did grow to a dark blackhole that did consume almost everything. It caused me to eliminate everything in my life and in myself that I felt was weak, but no matter how much weakness I seemed to get rid off the more I seemed to have. People become pawns on a chessboard of social dynamics and I was there to win.
Having no control was out of the question, being vulnerable was unthinkable, seeing myself as average caused nausea. So where is the happy ending? How did I move from the dark to the light or did I?
I luckily found out that when I have the courage to admit honestly that I am vulnerable and weak I am at my strongest, when I have the courage and strength to love even at risk that I am hurt that is when I find myself happiest.
So I choose love, peace and respect as my way, and to have the courage to walk the journey of a weak, vulnerable and average man.